G, goodbye, thank you.

Did I feel like you owed me anything?

An explanation

A goodbye

I

I thought we could tell each other anything, without judgment, even back then

La vida sigue, otra vez, sin ti

but I also would’ve done anything not to lose you (maybe you knew that)

aunque haya pensado que me debías algo

I am sorry

I

I couldn’t do it anymore

I couldn’t bear to know the truth

Pensé que me debías tu amistad

¿No la merecía?

¿No querías la mía?

Qué lástima

For the first time in my life, I could be myself

with you

with you, I could be happy (and I thought I made you happy too)

I

I

I should’ve listened more

Me dejé llevar por tu energía

tu forma de ver la vida

Me perdí y

dejé que te perdieras tú también, sin saber que ya no volverías

even when you reached out to me after I grieved for the first time

the loss

the loss of our connection

(our coincidence?)

Y lloré aún más que la primera vez

la segunda

la tercera

ya no podía

I accept (and I accept you)

(we must forgive ourselves)

Will you forgive me? Will you forget me?

I cared so much about what you had to say, what was on your mind, how you viewed the world and the people in it

You

You

You knew that I was flawed, yet you talked to me

I should’ve (truly) listened more

pero te agradezco

te agradezco

te quiero

I’ll live knowing we live under the same stars

Me quedo con la ilusión de lo que pudo haber sido, de lo que fue

(“Time heals everything, or at least the illusion of it does”)

y pase lo que pase te recordaré como la persona que me enseñó nuevos caminos

eso se queda en mi alma

and, you know? I don’t think souls ever die

(I know we’ve thought we might’ve met each other in other lifetimes)

(Have we yet to coincide again?)

that is one of the things I admire about you

your poetic soul

I feel nothing but grateful

I met you